Help: I'm An Artist
“But I need some time to think it through because I just found out that I might be an artist.” We all laughed.
I was in a hotel lobby with three curious and smart women who had come out to meet me.
One of them was realizing that she might have the plague, the artist plague.
Isn’t it funny how that works? You pick up your daughter’s paint brush, you start a novel in the dark, you play around in photoshop for three hours, you write a song while riding the bus and it’s almost like you’ve opened a can of worms.
It’s almost like you’re afraid of enjoying it or even being good at it because you’ll start to see a trail, a lifestyle form in your mind and wonder “Is this it?” “Is this what I’m supposed to be doing?”
How did we get here?
How did we get to a point where unmasking your creativity is almost a painful, daunting process?
How did it get to the point where we wish to fit into box just to make life easier, even if it means trimming all the beautiful and unique strands that blow on the membrane of our souls?
Have you been shoving your inner artist in a golf hole?
Are your arms tired of pushing it down? Trying to get every inch to fit? Even though it bursts out like a broken hose?
When does it stop?
I don’t think it ever does.
I think suffocating your creativity backfires in jealousy, irritability and being judgmental.
Maybe just let the thing fly out. Let the box burst. Undo the top button.
Enjoy it for a moment and then start asking yourself how to train your world to nourish these desires because I will warn you, unleashing your creativity is like unleashing a puppy.
It will run wild. You're going to have a lot of new responsibilities. You’ll have to feed it, water it and clean up it’s shit.
But just like a cute pup, your creativity will always be happy to see you when you come home.
It won’t even realize how long you’ve been gone and it will love you all the same.
It is an unconditional part of you. It is the magic of the world and it’s messy and dramatic but it’s always worth it.
So if you’re finding out that you might be an artist, don’t worry, it’s okay.
Drink water, take your viatmins and just go out there.